my feelings flow down like a stream.. It's fast & it hurts.. for better or worse, I'll love you every beat of my heart...

Finally.. the short sem is over for the past... This short sem is very tough for me.. It's a time with lots of success and lots of failure...

My failure of it was being a leader... Bad leader. Assignment wise, OMG.. couldn't get people to attend for group meetings, only few are doing most of the work... But we believe we had done well.. (I hope..)
Another is Noise magazine. I did seriously bad on it. And you know what, the editorial board's picture was not even taken. Due to lack of time, what I did was, take photos from their Facebook & put it in.. And till now, I haven't tell they all yet. I hope they'll forgive me..

Another failure is.. annoyed a girl too much. I don't know why, but I was very emo this whole sem. The relation "feeling" just came to me like that. & what I did was, I annoyed that her too much.. Basically, I was like giving the future planning that, "Oh, we should be .... ~~bla bla bla~~", she explained.. "No no no, you know I'm anti-r all those...." But, I don't know why I kept on asking & asking... I hope she's not fed up of me.. Hehe..  Sorry...

But one miracle thing is that, both of us are still as normal.. Maybe we are used to talking so "openly" or otherwise which I don't know the reason. It's like stirring water, how also it will stay together... So this situation is like, one side was so desperate to have a relation, but the other side was like so desperate not to have a relation. Can you imagine that? It's pulling & pushing but still, we are still together.. (pls, together as in not the couple together, I meant was, still together...)

Explaining to her was hard.. She is the type where you explain one or two words, and she will kind of jump to the conclusion and she will start explaining her verdicts.

What's the big deal then? I then will have to use a lot of words like "No, I meant this ~~~", "I'm just telling you, I'm not hoping an answer or what", "Hey, not like that, it's ~~~", "I'm not trying to make a statement here, I'm just too emo..."... and so on and so fort...

The reason for both of us to always talk about the relationship problem (almost every moment I think...) was not known.. Seriously.. I don't know, I know, I want to start a spark, but I don't know the reason why I keep on annoy her as stated, almost every moment...... Sorry.. And please note, it's not I'm the one always started it, she do sometimes start it too.. Haha. funny right...

She is anti-r, I'm also a little anti-r... Then i tried explaining "my terms" of relationship to her, but I failed... So far what I can explain is something more than a friend and lesser than couple.. Another is, as what we are now, but a little different.. (I don't know what's the difference la.. haha) (I actualy did some research on the types of couple available yesterday... Haha.. too emo too emo...) wait till I can explain myself better first-la, because I still don't know what's the "difference" I wanted...

Few reasons of it...(maybe...)
1. She might have somebody in her list..
2. She is confused of herself..
2.1. I'm confused of myself...
2.2. Both of us are confused of ourselves...
3. The "feel" is not there...
4. I've not done enough to touch her heart..
5... (comment at the bottom...) haha.. (maybe comment on what I should do also okay...)

(Important... to "her", please, I'm also not trying to do anything here, I'm just expressing my feelings only okay?...)

Many more failures... which, I don't want to talk about it la.. (losing weight too...) Shit....!

Success...
MOHE Future Leaders Camp rocks.. Sadly, I didn't bring my camera.. No documentation on it...
Did assignments quite well I suppose...
Networking was very good these few days... Able to talk to people who are a respected person in the society.. Nilai UC people did it quite well ya!

Psst!! tell you all something.. I might go for student exchange... HAHA!!! I'm too happy, but I'm also not hoping too much on it. It's because, I don't know confirm or not, and, I don't know much info about it... So I'll rather keep it a secret first...

I love Nilai UC.. I'll put all my heart & soul into it just like St. Paul's....

You shine & you shine, but make sure that you're the brightest.... Even if it's dim, it's okay, move on to a dark side, the dimmest light would be the brightest that time...

 ~Anonymous, Wong~...

I wonder how many of my mates out there still single like me.. Haha.. I'll wait for her to change her mind...

Signing out, roger and out!!

Magic the Gathering....

*Hui yo*... It's been so long since I've blogged!!>>>>>

Promotion about Magic the Gathering..

I've recently got 3booster packs which cost about RM 45 I suppose from a blog of my friend.. Firdaus... His blog offers quite a number of events, food, *bla bla bla*, you name it, there's in that blog..

It was "ShadowMoor".... "It a plane of perpetual dusk where the sun never rises, and where strange light seems to come from unseen sources."

I actually started with a White "Judgment" deck and next with a "Torment" deck. Started since Standard 6 after the UPSR exams.. And till now, nothing much have been done because there's no "teman" to play with..

Haha...

Those are my collections.. Haha.. Anyone who is interested in learning can consult me *ba*... But I'm a very weak player.. Haha...

Canon Photomarathon 09'

Woke up 4something.. Drove all the way 2 damansara.. Picked a fren
then off v go to..............

Canon photomarathon... On the way, i can c alot of ppl.. carrying bags *camera bags...* walking along the road sides 2 go 2 the elephant walk of Sunway L...

Imagine the amount of ppl...

Photographers in red! *blog review~~it will not b the normal white n red canon shirt (which is the trademark of canon)*

but it's all in "RED" "VERY DIFFERENT" ha??








The themes are 1. Splash, 2. Red, 3. Shooting in progress....

Basically, most of them went in photoshooting unrelated things.. haha like i did... XP

Usually i "feel" this (alot ppl shooting a particular subject) in an advertisement or so..
But i "felt" it 2dae.. it was fun..!

i did not expect a camera can do this, i always thought was digitally created.. but i shot 1!!! haha...

i put this as theme 1!

i'll put either 1 in the theme 3: shooting in progress

nice post, "cageless"
the unrelated matter!

when can i get 1 of those?

itchy? ask a birdie 2 help!

Some of my best shots.. *but nothing special la, coz most of the techniques are basics!..

"gathered for the passion of it" "all in one passion, one passion for all!"
my quotes! haha...

more photos, click here

did not submit for the competition.. coz of some probs.. haha..

Lolz.. tat's all folks!

Clouds in the hearts

I seriously... like tat cloud images in my blog... hehe.. *Thank u thank u**bow, applause*... haha. stop dreaming!

My family matters...
recently, my mom's bro's daughter which is, 14 goin 15..
IS PREGNANT!!!!...

So talk talk talk bout it.. legal age 2 get married, which is 15yrs.. so she basically can't register.. if report means, tat guy which is 21yrs old.. yes, 21yrs (how can a 14 n 21 can talk ar???) will b charged 4 raping an underage.. n the pay is.. HIGH!!!

Nvrm bout her..

In the car...

I : OMG, life 4 her is.. she haven gone through her teenager life yet. most fun time is teenager rite?

dad : ya la, wat din enjoy? she ad had sex wat?

I : ya la, but apart from tat, other teenager life le, didn't get 2 enjoy aso...

mom : (keep quiet).. haha..

In the hse after dinner... aso bout the topic

I : how can she noe a guy which is 21? she's jus 14... even for me aso, when i'm 14, i dun have a 21yrs friend? omg...

mom : she stays in a flat, most of the ppl there in tat particular block will noe each other.. n some how this fren, fren here, fren there, n finally can noe each other la....

dad : wat can a 21 guy n 14 gurl talk???

i : ya lo, wat can they talk....

dad : aiya, must b puppy love la. suppose sure will have puppy love la..

me : ya la, but aso, even like in school aso, puppy love, but, now come 2 think of it, c now, frens everywhere in colleges.. can't even meet.. even in college la, even love a gurl aso, will think tat, next time when graduate it's quite hard 2 handle aso la...

dad : u sure will have this feeling de la

me : ya...

dad : so who???

"my mom left 2 the kitchen 2 wash dish"

me : ern....... no la... hehe... *i laughed*...

dad : tel la, nothing de la

me : ern..... it's the gurl from.... it's the... ***XXXX***... la.... haha..

Lolz... wat u expect? 2 b continued? lolz. i dun think so... haha...

~~~this is not the continued story of the above, this is another matter okie!!!~~~
The gurl tat i had love b4.. she had really disappeared these few days.. tat dae, dunno y midnight, suddenly thought or her.. sms'ed n ask... then replied the next dae.. n... after tat chatting pun.. not much... hope she's okie!

dedicated.... to whom it may concern

If i..... should stay... i would onli b in ur way.....
So i'll go, but i know,
i will think of you, every step of the way.....

And i...............aiiiiii///// will always love u.....
will always love u.............uuuu.........

youuuuuuu,   my darling u....

bittersweet,, memories.... tat's all i'm taking.. wif me... eee...

so good bye,,, plezzzzzzzzzzzzzzzze dun cry.
we both noe, i'm not wat u, u  need....

and i.... ai....!!!! will always love
i'll always love u.... uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu.....
i'll always love u....... uuuuUuuUUUuuuuuu

i....ai    hope.. life treats u kind..
and i hope u have all u've dreamed of..
and i wish 2 u joy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
and happiness...ssss
but above all these, i'm wishing u love....veveveveve.

*dum*

and i.... will always love u    uuuUuuUUUU
i'll always love u..
i'll always love u... uuuUuUuU...
i... will always love u,,.... uuuUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU..
i.. will always love u,.... uuuuUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU...
i'll always.... lovee........eeeeeeeeeEeEEEeeeEEE.... u......

Expenses...

Day 1,2 (Sibu)

• RM 9
• Magazine (4 reading in the plane)
• RM 150
• Flight
• RM 3.05
• makan makan
• RM 1
• Misc..

Day 3, 4, 5, 6 (Kch)

• RM 60
• tune hotel
• RM 3.60
• makan in the bus from cbu 2 kch
• RM 40
• bus ticket
• RM 22
• taxi from terminal 2 hotel
• RM 5.40
• makan makan
• RM 2.70
• toothpaste etc..
• RM 2.70
• bf
• RM 3
• donation 4 museum
• RM 20
• van 2 santubong n back
• RM 60
• scv entrance
• RM 4
• makan makan
• RM 115,
• santubong resort
• RM 25.50
• dinner in the hotel!!!
• RM 35
• transit point lodge.. dun go there!
• RM 48.50
• souvenirs
• RM 15.20
• dinner n breakfast + misc makan makan..
• RM 41
• bus from station 2 terminal, n back 2 sibu

Day 7,8,9

• RM 14
• makan makan
• RM 30
• petrol 4 amy
• RM 7.60
• makan makan
• RM 8.20
• makan makan...

Total is 732.05...

If u go 2 person or in even numbers wil b cheaper..
coz the rooms i stay is all double..
if u have more than 1 person.. u can even stay in dorms.. which is rm30 onli.. place, singgahsana lodge, the 1 beside the colourful building...

Come on... ALone?

It's been long since May... Ticket 2 sibu (cbu), Sarawak had been booked.. It's jus like Rm156 through n flow.. Which airline? Airasia? Wrong, it's MAS.. was a promotion. So ppl, when u book ur airlines, check both of them 1st.

12th (Sat) is the dae, I'm flying, in the beautiful month of sept, 09. Number 12? alot of things happen during the date 12th.. This wonderful person was born, my spm results was out, the date i enrol 2 utp, n the date i came out from utp (1month later)... haha.. nice? yap. i love number 12.

Final call for flight MH 2718. Pls proceed 2 gate A11 for immediate boarding. Thank u...

Was supposed 2 b three person, but left me alone. But nvrm, since paid 4 the flight, takkan dun go rite?
Not much money 2 waste around jus like tat lo..

During the flight was cloud taking n jus spending time relaxing, anxious, eating, magazine etc onli...

got ferrero rocher some more..

Flight was 6.30pm, reach kuching (kch) around 8.40pm.. transit back, get approval from immigration etc then  boleh masuk sarawak le... Reach cbu around 9.40. Amy's land!

She got me from the airport n straight 2 her hse.

N 2 find out tat i have 2 stay alone in another empty hse.. which is double storey... haha..

it was scary okie... then the down floor got those photos of her grandma n pa, black n white... adui.. scary eh.. haha, if u stay there de okie la.. i'm like, jus came onli.. n... haha, no need 2 say la..

Sleep sleep sleep.. 2 ppl tat r being disturbed by me was temka n yee ling tat nite.. haha

Good morning!!!

Journey of cbu begins.. It's a land with alot of "parks" n swans... fake ones of coz.. haha.. then got alot of stone carving..

It was a sunday.. this is amy's church... very very very very rich...

cbu got alot of church, i think the richest is this la...

View of the river n the main town.. from tua pek kong temple (tower)

I kinda like the town, it's very bz.. (mayb i dun sban town during sunday, tat's y dunno... haha.. n they have these u c, selling those sour sour preserved fruits n sweets.. oh my my,,, i love tat!!!

                        

ah!!! i want all!!! all!!!!

this is 1 of the example of long hse.. view from the car, i can't get a close up view..

                                                             

a park... which i say, alot of parks...

                                          

nice huh? praise cameraman or camera??

this thing attracts me... i group it s a best shot in my whole journey... it's a signboard in the park.. which has arrow pointing up... n "hide"??? hide?? i dunno y... haha... mayb hide is a word 4 something other than "hiding".

It has a lot of elements in it.. it's wooden with a bolt at the side, n greenish thingy on top, n the background is grass which is light green... nice?

land in cbu is soft... u c!! i was shocked when i c this!!

                          

in the evening v climb a "mountain"... stairs are available.. haha, dunno wat name ad la...

From sibu 2 kuching... (day 1)

i did not stay in amy's place 4 the whole journey.. reason:-

• i'm oneself.. go there, awkward le...
• somemore my fren is a gurl.. i'm guy.. imagine.. haha.. (eh, dun imagine so much eh)
• n aso, stay in ppl's hse so long. aso paiseh la...

So i went 2 kch the on the 22th... alone... haha...
bus from cbu 2 kch needs arounf 7hrs (7hrs n u're still in the same state.. haha)... rm40...

when i reach the terminal, i need 2 go 2 tune hotel.. which is jus behind the hilton hotel near kuching waterfront..
i couldn't find where is the bus terminal in the map.. so i have 2 sit the taxi which is... RM 22... mad!!!
4 those who sit plane 2 kch, u can sit the tune hotel shuttle which is jus rm9.99 from airport 2 the hotel...
tune hotel was nice, no tv, got aircond, nice toilet.. nice bed.. haha it's jus rm60 in total.. i did not request 4 the aircond.. u need 2 add rm10 i think.. if u go 2person then it's cheap la, coz it's a queen size bed..

toilet is without lock.. haha, n it's glass door, if u go wif a gurl, mayb u need 2 go out of the room when they bath.. lolz...

bus from cbu was 7am, reach kch around 3like tat, 3something reach tune hotel.. then jus jalan jalan in kch city.. the east side of kch.. nothing much, jus monument of cats n nice sceneries, n of coz the river.. haha

this is in front of tun jugah n sarawak plaza shopping complex.. jus near tune hotel onli..

2 cross the river from the kch waterfront, it's rm0.50... it's cheap lo, but,,, i was afraid.. haha.. i sat on it n went 2 the other side.. n i did not 1 2 come back.. coz of the boat.. i was jus phobia.. haha... but, the onli way 2 go back 2 the other side is jus the boat... no choice.. have 2 sit aso.. haha opp the kch waterfront is the fort magarita..
 i did not went there, coz i jus found out bout it after i came back from there.. in the jetty i meet a nice malay woman.. chat a little... nice lady.. btw, sarawak ppl all quite helpful... i'll continue this hospitality friendliness later.. haha

cats..

i missed this 1.. it's actually a cruise, evening cruise, rm60.. i did not have time 2 go 4 this.. u can get a night view of dunno where n where from the boat.. which is nice.. i saw some nice nightview of kch, but i couldn't get 1.. sob sob..

                                

this is fort magarita aso, but it's in kch waterfront, not the opp 1.. it seems james/charles brooke built this 4 the wife or something.. at the background is a hall... DUN hall i think.. this photo i did not group as a best shot.. coz i think it's a little overexposed!..(was hazy aso tat time...) n aso, there's rubbish in the front there u c... beside the door..

but, somehow, it was a "NEARLY" a best shot, coz, the reflection of the water u c.. it has quite an element in it...

even in kch, there's stone carving... (it's history, the story where a mousedeer trick the crocodile 2 cross the river)

i was to go santubong the next dae, so i've 2 find the transport there.. this is where sawarak hospitality continues... i walked around there 2 find n find... i asked... 3person there... 1 uncle jogging there n i jus stop him by... he talk talk talk.. nice guy.. i got the info of where 2 get the van 2 go santubong.. i told him thanks, he says no need thanx.. (in chinese it will b nicer.. haha)

then i walk n found out tat i couldn't find.. i jus walk n walk n i saw indian street... haha, 4 ur humble info, there's no indian in kch, even in cbu.. not at all!!!! walked inside the street n found mostly iban n malay ppl opening stalls...of coz, kek lapis, the famous ones...

                                   

then i found the kereta sewa (van), it's run by the government, on the van is written bus persiaran n it's written what zone n all n which place 2 go etc.. it's fairly cheap when u have a group, basically u rent the whole van.. as i'm alone, i did not 1, coz it's expensive. then the drivers directed me back 2 kch waterfront for another shuttle van service 2santubong.. they told me "u noe the most colourful building?" yes of coz, there's onli 1 colourful tall building in kch... 4 those who r visiting kch n goin santubong, dun call the taxi, taxi mayb 40 n 40 through n flow,

i'm anti anti anti anti anti taxi actually...

find the shuttle van beside this particular building, n it's infront of singgahsana lodge... get the ticket from the lodge, (in front of the lodge there's a banner saying shuttle from kch 2 damai n santubong...) it's jus rm10 onli 1way..

                             

n yes.. my transport 2 santubong 2moro is settled!@!!!

continued my tour in kch ct...

        

i put the left photo s my best shot s well... hmmm.. izit nice? abit of adjustments n u can get 2 different picture..

y best? u can c the colour, it's like very old.. n hmm, i dunno how 2 say n explain.. enjoy urself.. haha

oh btw, it's tua pek kong temple...

then i visited the chinese museum.. didn't quite like tat uncle in the museum.. coz he's so racist.. he says, coz u're chinese i let u snap photo.. omg!!! wat la..

my dae ends here in kch... at nite, i didn't dare 2 go out.. haha, was afraid...

end of day 1...